Thursday, 30 August 2007


So tonight after work I did a really stupid thing. Against my better judgement I went to go and meet Boy with a Girlfriend* for a cup of coffee. I don't really know what I was expecting or why I went but all reason went completely out of my head and just left the office, got on the tube and went to see him.

We ended up sitting in a Cafe Nero kissing for a good 30 minutes - not in any innocent way I might add! Now I'm ever so confused as to what I should do. I adore the guy, I want to be with him and I think that we would be fantastic together. But there is the small problem of his girlfriend and they don't seem to be breaking up any time soon. I am trying to weight up the pros and cons as to whether I should stick around and try to win him or bail whilst I'm not completely emotionally invested in this.

Gem and her lovely boyfriend say that as long as they aren't living together he is fair game. Varen thinks that I should tell him straight up to leave the girlfriend and Fligela thinks that I should run as fast as possible in the opposite direction.

I honestly don't know if he is even considering the idea of leaving the girlfriend - I'm too scared to bring it up unless he says no he isn't and then stops talking to me and I'm also scared to bring it up unless he actually did and then he was mine. I mean could you trust someone like this? He claims that he doesn't do this usually, that I'm the only other girl he spends all day flirting with over MSN and that he really cares about me but can I believe him?

If he so easily meets a girl after work and makes out with her whilst with his current girlfriend he could do the exact same thing to me ... couldn't he?

*Boy with a Girlfriend is an interesting "friend" that I have who claims to adore me completely and says that he thinks I am the best thing since sliced bread. Since December last year we have flirted none stop and exchanged in some pretty dodgy emails but only in the past couple of months have we started to really cross the boundaries and I'm beginning to wonder if I am, in fact, the other woman.


Woman said...

If you're getting something good from it, then enjoy it. But if you're wanting to be The One (and only) you might find this isn't the guy for you?

The Divine Miss M said...

Unfortunately woman I seem to have some emotions invested in him and I want him to be MY boyfriend. I just don't know if I should attempt to win or just leave it, all I know is I seem to be incapable of not talking to him.